My Identity Crisis


I used to fear the loss of my identity if I dove all in in my walk with Christ. I never wanted to be one of “those” people. The cookie-cutter Christians that seemed fake and judgmental. I never wanted to be that. I always heard that Jesus would quench my thirsty soul and I so desperately wanted my soul to be hydrated with something that would satisfy me far beyond the status quo, I just didn’t want to drink the Kool-aid. In fact, I would feel the magnetic pull of the holy spirit drawing me nearer to thee and would get so close only to back away out of this fear. Fortunately for me, the relentless pursuit and reckless love of God wrecked me and shattered the lies that kept me from experiencing the fullness of him and all that he has for me. My identity is in HIM and I can never lose that. The identity I thought I would lose was really the authentic, organic, and natural parts of myself that were anything but refined and holy aligned. My human essence that makes me uniquely me. I was never meant to become a cardboard cut out or an image bearing rule follower that seems to have it all together when I don’t. Even still as I continue to walk deeper with Him. We don’t have to. We weren’t meant to. We were created and designed to need him. To want him. To fully desire and ultimately submit to him. His will. Not ours. I’ve surrendered into the grace that his love intoxicated me with and I’m drunk on the holy spirit, orderly ordained and fashioned to his favor even when the enemy tries to pin one on me. I’m hooked. Head over heels and happier in my spirit than I ever am without him. My invitation to you…Whatever you think you will lose if you partner with him is everything that will set you free into your true and divine destiny.

If you want to hear my personal testimony or simply want prayer or even just curious to learn more about our true saving grace, message me. Your soul knows it longs for more and Jesus is the more…

~Audra Erwin

The “High on Life” Coach

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