The Fertility Files

The Fertility Files

I’ve been wanting to write a MONOLOGUE about my personal experience with INFERTILITY for a while now. I’ve never written one and so today I decided to just sit down and attempt it. Just curious to see what flowed out that would give me something to work with. This is what my heart handed me… […]

Dear Parents

Dear Parents

Dear Parents, Forgive me for expecting more out of you or my childhood than I believed I received Forgive my brain for its wiring to default to what’s missing instead of focusing on what’s right Forgive me for not considering your own soul and it’s own journey and path through this thing called life I […]

Remembering Me

Remembering Me

I remember her all those years ago Excited and unafraid Eager and enthusiastic High on life Just because I remember her innocence and the butterflies that kicked up a chorus line in her stomach while she did the same on a stage Not the flutters of fear but the flitters of fortune The abundance of […]

His Blood Runs Through My Instrument ...

His Blood Runs Through My Instrument And His Song Is In My Soul…

I haven’t really paused to feel the feels. Been too “busy” this week, and suddenly they crash into me without warning. My granddad passed away on Monday and I’m sad. It doesn’t matter that he was just shy of 94 years old or the relief for him as he is free now from his body […]

Breaking The Mold

Breaking The Mold

I once was told that restlessness was a bad thing Some people still are That we are to be still To follow the mainstream preferences for they are preferred and I preferred not engage in those activities that kept me in cages Instead, I crushed the eggshells I used to walk on Cracking myself up […]

Unbecoming

Unbecoming

Once upon a time, I was told not to wear white after Labor Day. We all were. Most of us complied. Because “they” said so. Following the status quo like a bunch of sheeple herded in by “Big Brother,” “The Joneses,” and the “Fashion Police.” I allowed it to apprehend my own spirit that just […]

The Long And Winding Road To Nowhere ...

The Long And Winding Road To Nowhere And Everywhere

I love what I love. I like what I like. I fancy what I fancy. It’s my birthright. To pick and choose. To sift and sort. To say yes to this and no to that. To honor my nudges, my impulses, my truest desires. To not just go out on a limb to dangle there, […]

Walking With Grief

Walking With Grief

I went out for a walk tonight to get some exercise and take in the sunset. On my way back I was hit by a tsunami of grief. Seemingly out of nowhere. Provoked only by the thought of her presence and all the walks I used to take with her. Especially that one. The one […]

Receive And Believe

Receive And Believe

Someone sent this postcard to me last year. I have it pinned to my corkboard. Something told me today to share it with you… Can you RECEIVE it? It took me a long time to be able to fully RECEIVE. To receive help, compliments or anything that validated my inherent worth and value. I found […]

When Ink Becomes Air

When Ink Becomes Air

The nature of this writing life has me showing up to the blank pages. Simply because they ask me to. Beg me even sometimes. Waiting patiently and eagerly all at the same time. Always meeting me exactly where I am. Allowing for my willing or not so willing participation. To extract fragments of my soul […]